Amidst a static whirlpool

Have you ever felt being pulled into a whirlpool? There's so much of tension and apprehension at the thought of being swept into a whirlpool but what happens when you are inside it....
Blank, dark, numbness ......there's no feelings, no pain ,no happiness, no anxiety, all you feel is numbness......the feeling of vacuum.....

So much of apprehension for a year, waiting for the final countdown and now when it has begun why am letting it go....am i even doing that....am numb, cant feel a thing......waiting to be sucked into vacuum rather have already been sucked into vacuum......can i save myself?? From what shall i protect myself? Even the enemy is unknown , if one exist...such is the world....such is my life or rather my days.......