Sunshine on my shoulders......

Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely
Sunshine almost always makes me high

If I had a day that I could give you
I'd give to you a day just like today
If I had a song that I could sing for you
I'd sing a song to make you feel this way

If I had a tale that I could tell you
I'd tell a tale sure to make you smile
If I had a wish that I could wish for you
I'd make a wish for sunshine all the while

The warm sunshine balming our shoulders, the glistening water of our jheel, the birds' chirping on the trees, the careless laughter of a bunch of friends ...the ingredients of our youth, the last straw of innocence , the end of careless life and laughter.....
Nothing but the song expresses my feelings for this moment, a moment captured in a digital frame rather a moment that captured us all in a trance of joyous youth.....

I wander lonely as a cloud

I wander'd lonely as a cloud

You , the reader might think i am starting an essay or trying to explain these famous lines of "Daffodils" by Wordsworth. Let me assure you , I have no intention of plunging into a literary discussion of the lines. But my curious mind is always intrigued by the irony of this infamous line with regard to our lives.

When i was a kid, i often recited the line as "I wander'd as a lonely cloud". My teacher corrected me now and again but i always made the same mistake. At that point of time i lacked the capability of understanding the difference between "a lonely cloud" and "lonely as a cloud". At that point of time it portrayed a beautiful image of a lonely cloud floating among the hills and valleys. I always used to say ..."I wanna travel like a lonely cloud over the fields of Daffodils.....".This beautiful picture has always stayed with me.This line has always been a part of my life.

Are we like "lonely cloud...." wandering among the "hills and vales...." of our life ? This is what i questioned myself again and again. "Are we really lonely???".

In a way, we are. We are always surrounded by our near and dear ones.Will it be unfair if we say we are lonely?Maybe not.We are never alone in this universe.There's always someone to accompany us each time. But then every individual walks the road of life alone. He has loved ones to accompany him but he is lonely. There seems to be a very fine difference when we say "I am lonely" and "I am alone". We are not alone we travel alone. That makes us wander lonely in our life.We may take advise from people at the crossroads of our life but we walk the road alone.Even in a crowd we are lonely. A cloud floats among hills and vales , it mayor may not be accompanied by others , but it travels alone. Its lonely journey is synonymous to our journey of life.Somehow this single line tells the story of every person.

What my relfection says...

"You have changed a lot......"This is what i hear so often nowadays.Initially I used to get irritated when i heard this phrase. It's like when people have not seen you in recent times all they observe is a change. Well I could never understand can a person undergo such prominent change within a span of a year. I may overlook comments from mere acquaintances but how can i ignore my near ones. Why do they say I have changed?

Well I dont need to stagger around for an answer to this question.Last night i found myself staring at an unknown reflection in the mirror , not a physical reflection, the relfection of my mind.I found myself telling the reflection..."You have changed...."So now i dont need to look for an answer anymore, dont need to justify myself in front of others why am not my old self.Somewhere in crossing the bridge between my youth and my adulthood , i just lost my oldself.

We may try to hold on to things as I had tried to hold on my college emotions .But the more you try to hold on to these emotions they slip out from you like sand slipping out of your fingers. Just walk the road called life. Your emotions will change, your surroundings will change , you will change but the path will always be there for you , inviting you to embark on a new exciting journey everytime. Its your decision whether you want to walk ahead along the road on your own will or let the road take you to unknown places which you will discover eventually. I chose the latter unknowingly and found myself telling "I have changed...." Its time for me to rediscover myself.